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TRUTH MUST SPEAK LOUDER THAN MONEY. LOVE MUST PREVAIL OVER HATRED
RACHEL ALINTOFF’S STRUGGLE FOR HER SON
By Rachel Alintoff
Brooklyn, NY (April 15, 2015) — My great-grandmother’s name was Anna. I remember so many things about her, but mostly it was her joyous devotion to her five children, husband, grandchildren and great-grandchildren that has stayed with me all these years.
My brother and I grew up in Ditmas Park Brooklyn in an old Victorian home, but on Sunday mornings, we invariably traveled to Manhattan’s Lower East Side to be with Great Grandma Anna. As the morning progressed, my cousins and uncles and aunts would arrive, filling the small place with light and laughter. You could not imagine how a one-bedroom apartment could hold so many people. Looking back, it seems like magic, something out of a Hasidic tale about how a small home can stretch to accommodate love.
I knew I was lucky to taste this warm, wonderful Old World Jewish family life, yet, I never could have imagined that the deep ties that had been cultivated within my family would one day be used against me by a judge in New Jersey as part of the reason to take my small son away from me in a contentious divorce case.
“The mother is too enmeshed with her family,” stated Judge Linda Grasso Jones in Monmouth County Courthouse, New Jersey in the insane ruling that rendered me a mother unfit to have custody of her small child.
By some logic hatched in an upside-down world, my son Hayden was snatched away from me — and the loving extended family I yearned to share with him — by a corrupt judge, which is sadly synonymous with daily life within the Monmouth County Court.
In an instant, all the zeal and energy I stored up for my mothering buzzed around me, looking for an outlet. I felt like the victim of a dark riddle: what do you call a mother who cannot mother her own child?
If the Monmouth County court is right about anything is it that I am close to my family. As a child, I had the best parental role models you can hope for, strong women whose love for their children knew no bounds. My own mother is a well-educated stay-at-home mom who tirelessly prepared meals, kept us clean, took us on cultural outings, stayed up all night when we were sick, supported us emotionally and cheered the loudest for our accomplishments. My great-grandmother Anna would show immense joy at our weekly visits to having everyone “under one roof.” On Friday nights when we would visit, I would watch my great-grandmother light Shabbos candles in the kitchen and afterwards, she would take my hand and say, “don’t tell great-grandpa if I give you a piece of dark chocolate” with a thick Yiddish accent. I adored her. She was tiny, but commanded great respect and had a sense of humor that even at a young age I could discern as being exceptional for someone of her age.
After what I have been through over the past three years I realize how lucky I was to have had such a carefree happy childhood. I viewed family as comforting and I loved the connection I had to my Jewish heritage through my great-grandparents and Hebrew school in Brooklyn. Bagels and lox, herring and tuna casserole on Sunday afternoons on the Lower East Side and playing with my cousins in the hallway until one of the neighbors would complain about the noise. My father’s mother, grandma Leah, lived across from my great grandparents so I never viewed living close to home as anything other than normal. I am and was close to my Grandma Leah (she’s now 96 years old and still very much a part of my life). As a little girl, I observed how my great-grandmother’s love of all her children was so beautifully reciprocated and I hoped to one day emulate that connection in my own life with my own children.
When I was in my early 30’s, I met and began dating Bryan Alintoff. From the way he presented himself, I was thrilled to see that Bryan and I shared similar family values. I never imagined that everything he had presented to me was a lie and a farce – a brilliant act by a narcissist and con artist to win a nice girl over. We were engaged only four months after meeting and married about eight months after that. Two years after we were married, our son Hayden Max Alintoff was born. I cannot describe the bliss I felt when Hayden was first put into my arms or all the months that followed as I was able to stay at home with him, nursing him as a baby and watching him explore the world. I felt a euphoric gratitude for his presence in my life and proud of the mother that I had become molded by the generations of Jewish loving mothers before me.
My secure and beautiful life began to shatter slowly around me as my husband Bryan began to display controlling and angry behaviors towards me. We moved out to Long Branch, NJ partly because Bryan was insisting on distancing me from my family. Tragically, Bryan had not had a good childhood and his associations with family were far from positive. His mother was emotionally distant and often absent. His father, a wealthy Connecticut investment banker or something or that nature, had not been faithful and eventually left Bryan’s mother for another woman. I never realized that Bryan’s shattered childhood and animosity towards both his mother and father would play out in our marriage, but it did and in the most horrific way it possibly could. Bryan began to resent me for being a good mother and for being loving towards our son. He began to verbally diminish me whenever he could, often telling me that I had never accomplished anything in my life and that being a mother in and of itself is not an accomplishment. He would constantly harass me to stop nursing Hayden. He would come home and demand to know hour-by-hour what I had done with my day and what activities I had gone on with Hayden. I began to fear Bryan and that fear would only worsen when he would drink. On the days and nights that Bryan would drink, he would black out and I would have to shield Hayden from being woken up or being bathed by his drunk father. I found out that Bryan had been having an inappropriate relationship with the aunt of one of my friends – following in his father’s footsteps. Terrified, I left Bryan when Hayden was two years old and came back to Brooklyn to temporarily live with my parents until I could find my own apartment. In response, Bryan filed for divorce and immediately started a vicious custody battle for our son.
These past three years have been nightmarish and surreal. My son, who has now been diagnosed as autistic, is the joy and love of my life. Descended from a long line of strong women, the support of my family keeps me fighting to regain custody of Hayden. Among the many obscene and unfair aspects of the custody battle is our dramatically different financial situations. Bryan has become wealthy from being a commodities trader on Wall Street and therefore has had an army of lawyers to fight me with while I was only armed with the truth, the facts, a quest for justice and the determination to tell my story.
Along the way in my fight for my son, I’ve uncovered a stunning reality: I am hardly alone as a parent seeking a just outcome in my custody quest in Monmouth County. More than 200 women have come forward to Governor Chris Christie over the past couple of years to complain about the collusion and fraud within the courthouse, galvanized and inspired by my example. The culture of corruption is deeply entrenched in Monmouth County. Money speaks louder than the truth and children are just the means to an end; their wellbeing is irrelevant to the judges presiding over the cases. I have witnessed too many instances of loving mothers deprived of their children and custody awarded to monstrous – and wealthy – husbands. In my situation, my son had the benefit of living with me in Brooklyn and attending a special needs school for the last three years of this court battle up until September 2014 when he was ripped from me by Judge Grasso Jones in a move that I believe was retaliation for my outspokenness as well as collusion with the well-heeled law firm my husband hired with his Wall Street money.
Though I am left with empty arms and a broken heart, I can still stand tall and fight for my son. My son needs me. My son loves me. He is a special needs kindergarten student for whom stability is vital. I believe that his development is being compromised by the instability in his young life.
The details of our custody battle are so horrible as to be ludicrous. Readers will have a hard time believing some of my testimony…unless they have been through something similar themselves. Yet, while my husband continues to play a game of “How much can I torture my ex?” my sole concern remains the best interest of my child, namely, the desire to give him the rich childhood that I enjoyed. With the strength of my Jewish heritage that taught me that nothing comes without hard work, I am determined to do whatever it takes to shine light on the massive corruption that festers and thrives within the walls of the Family Court System in New Jersey. Truth must speak louder than money; love must prevail over hatred. I am fighting for my five-year-old son and every mother who steps into that courthouse after me.